From Rock Bottom to Rize: My Journey to Unapologetic Purpose

Five years ago, I hit rock bottom. Today, my life is a testament to how radically things can change when you choose to live with love, honesty, and authenticity. It was in that decision that my world began to shift, and I’ve been blessed in ways I never dared to imagine—not with material wealth, but with life’s most meaningful gifts.

On June 13th, 2024, I welcomed my beautiful son, Lux Creed, into the world. He is my light, my proof that past mistakes don’t define us. Through him, I’ve learned the true meaning of redemption and forgiveness.

Now, I’m back in school, pursuing a new major and determined to finish my degree. For me, this journey isn’t just about earning a diploma; it’s about proving to myself—and to anyone watching—that it’s possible to rise above even the darkest moments. Addiction and incarceration may have been chapters in my story, but they don’t have to define the ending. I want to empower and inspire anyone who feels stuck in their own rock bottom to believe in the possibility of a comeback. You can rise again—stronger, wiser, and more fulfilled. And beyond that, I want to remind everyone, no matter their past, that personal growth is always within reach. You don’t have to hit rock bottom to strive for more—there’s always another level of fulfillment and potential waiting for you to unlock.

Nine years ago, I wasn’t the mother—or the person—I needed to be. Losing custody of my son was devastating, and when I faced another pregnancy amidst my struggles with addiction, I was forced to confront unbearable truths. I knew addiction wasn’t something that would vanish overnight. Even if I managed to get clean, the baby would have been born addicted, only to be taken from me. The pain of bringing another child into that suffering was too much to bear. I made the excruciating decision to terminate the pregnancy, a choice that left deep scars on my soul.

In the depths of that despair, I attempted to end my life several times. Yet, looking back, those moments of desperation were also signs that I still had a purpose left to fulfill. I survived not only those attempts but also two near-death experiences from sepsis caused by IV drug use—moments when I was ready to let go. But life, the universe, or whatever force you believe in had other plans for me.

At my lowest, I didn’t love myself. In truth, I hated who I had become. Without self-love, it’s impossible to understand what true, unconditional love is. But today, everything is different. Today, I stand as the mother my son deserves and a woman I am truly proud of.

That’s why I’m launching Rize to New Heitz Coaching & Spiritual Advising. My journey—from the depths of despair to a life filled with purpose, love, and light—has given me unique insight, wisdom, and compassion that I want to share with others. If I can transform my pain into purpose, I believe you can too. Let me help you discover the strength and potential already within you. Together, we can rise.